What do you want to talk about?

This is a difficult question. A very open one.
 
What´s on your mind these days?

A lot. The world-weariness is very present with me. On the one hand it’s the ongoing wars, but also the climate, because it is very obvious in Switzerland. The glaciers are melting, there is less and less water in our hometown river the Aare and the trees are too green for the season.
Also, I am worried about the health of our drummer. This is very heavy; the past year was incredibly difficult for us. Even though we were able to play a lot of shows, which was nice, but behind the scenes it was rather challenging.

 
Does this world-weariness make you sad or does it frighten you? Or does it make you angry?

I think it’s both, but for sure it’s also anger. As a woman you are told from an early age that anger is a feeling that you shouldn’t show. You are supposed to be the nice girl instead. But within the last few years I learned that it is okay to feel and express anger.

I often have the feeling that people from the metal scene are more relaxed, because they release their anger through music.

Hm.
 

Okay, not everybody, we all know counterexamples, but in the fanbase there are a lot of relaxed people.

Yes, that’s true. Generally, I am also rather relaxed, because I have an outlet in the form of making music. Or sports, this also helps to channel the anger.
 

On the other hand, anger itself is nothing beneficial. Because anger also makes you ill and destructive. I often have the feeling that by letting it out I also feed it, instead of getting rid of it.

There was a time when I held a lot of anger, mostly directed inward and rarely toward others. I’ve learned to handle it better, avoiding taking it out on myself or others and just letting it out on its own. This is a nice change in my life. But I think it’s important to be angry, especially in these challenging times.

Are you afraid of the future?

Yes, actually. Prior to the tour, I told myself to live more on a day-by-day basis because the future is quite frightening to me. Thinking too far ahead hurts too much. That’s why I try to think from day to day and that’s somehow better.
 

I think that’s a good strategy. It’s like with anger, when you endorse too much into it, then you can’t get out of it. The best is to live in the moment. Right now we are sitting here with a glass of red wine and a cappuccino – we are not doing so bad.

Yes, that’s right. I think fear is a destructive feeling, worse than anger. Thinking about anger I always imagine the sun. Fear is somehow very cold and detrimental.
 

Who is writing the music in the band?

It’s the three of us. With the first album, it was mainly Isa and me and then Mischa joined us. We wrote the second album «Vexier» together during the pandemic. We were in the rehearsal room twice a week and intensively wrote music. That has carried us through these times quite smoothly. That would be the goal for the third album as well, but we must see how Mischa is doing. We already have a lot of ideas. We don’t have a mastermind who writes everything while the others are just marionettes. This is not our thing. Writing together might take more time and you must discuss more but it’s worth the effort. So, if two are in favor and one is against it, we usually cancel the idea for now and then work on it until everybody agrees.

This works?

I would say so. I think we have good dynamics. The three of us are very different characters and together we function very well. Everything balances out nicely throughout the process.

 
When you write music, what flows into it out of your own cosmos?

I heard a lot from the listeners that our music is very calming. This is nice to hear because it’s exactly the feeling we like to convey to the audience. It’s like when you are in nature, then you also have this relaxing feeling. You can let yourself fall and dream and forget about time. This is very important to us, that our music is not so disturbing but rather soothing.
 
Do you sometimes have the feeling that the music comes out of nothing, that it is suddenly there?

Yes, this also happens. For instance, yesterday I changed the strings on my guitar and just played random stuff and then suddenly I had an idea. I recorded it directly, on video, because otherwise, I forget what I played. I do this often when I have spontaneous ideas. Then I try to work it out further at home and play it to the others.